Chinese:
詞曲：王雅君

我們都曾經失去愛情
從你的身上　我認識刻骨銘心
錯過的花季　我的心也糾結成冰
我們都曾經非常努力　卻常常的嘆息
常常有了疑問句　所以我離去

偶爾很清醒　偶爾卻抗拒
偶爾有睡意　偶爾很傷心
當我們反覆練習
想讓愛歸零　但無能為力

偶爾很開心　偶爾卻下雨
偶爾有夢境　偶爾很想你
當我們同時安靜
也做了決定　卻不要再見你



uh...school is tiring as usual,
and lots of things need adapting to.
Tuesday got Christmas present,
Wednesday got sweets from Japan :)
Thanks Zeli.
Oh, Charmaine gave me a teddy bear
hug on the first day of school. Thanks.
Jane was still the same <3
Grace Ang trained home with me.
Ah! Wayne's trousers just looked so funnye (sorry! XD)
Ohmigosh SueMae was damn funny.
All these ppl made my day TYVM :)
I WANT MORE SLEEP!

school's going to reopen...
I hope my class is um...good?
I hate new classes. I hate to
self-introduce. Makes me feel so
damn dumb. I always have this bad feeling
for school opening. I hate to adapt
to new environments. I promised
myself I aren't going to have
new friends. I promised my mum
I'll have better results. And I
think I'm going to break both.
I hated it. grrr. I'm full
of hatred now. I hate my mum's
nagging.

Okay. I'm feeling so helpless.
Dunno how come so stressed.
Holidays leh. Haizzz.
Ytd countdown so moodless.
Watch Rain's Fashion Concert.
Uhuh...its quite short. And
I saw three ppl on Channel 8 Countdown
Show dancing to Sorry Sorry.
Me and my sis were like 'hurhurhur...'
New discovery: Ft Island, not bad
2nd new discovery: I'm getting weaker, not stronger
3rd discovery: I'm trying to runaway
4th discovery: I'm still loving Kpop <3

Okay then, short post for today.
Shall sleep early (last few days insomnia until want die alr -.-)

haiz, so many things happened.
Have to update quite alot. Of course,
first and foremost, CLASS CHALET 209.
Sobz.

Okay, so Mr Tan called my mum and managed
to persuade her to let me go. *claps*
I sincerely thank you Mr Tan :D and
i'm sorry about him leaving NHHS.
Okay, so I waited for Mr Tan at
Clementi MRT Station coz he's
"in the toilet". hahaha.
So anw, I reached damn late.
The steamboat was over :/
but I dunno who saved some
noodles for me :D okay i ate
a and left the others alone coz
I dunno who started playing zhong ji
mi ma and I lost my appetite. Hmm, i think
the lime juice there is nice. So anw,
I think we started to walk around,
discuss about watching a movie, but went
to bowl instead :D I love bowling. Coz
i striked :D Hmm...I'll just state the
main activities otherwise i'll nv get
to finish this post. Kay, at
night, Grace was going crazy,
I rmb her 'flirting' with
Ler Yang. Hey man, I was worried
about Ler Yang, not her LOL.
Hmm, next morning, I think
my mood got high or sth coz
I tried to make everybody laugh.
Heeee. Think it worked. I was
happy too. Umm...then we went inside
dunno wad plaza, sat down in the
middle of nowhere,ah! Near the
crazy machine. The music was funny haha.
And, we played murderer :D I killed
alot of ppl! Wink wink :D
Then, we 拍 neoprints,
Then, we went to catch a movie <3
Then, we went Kbox (ex man...)
Then, we had waterworks back at the chalet
Then, uhhh Zeli & Wayne went home (some others too)
Then, sweet dreams
Third day...
We...checked out.
Then, breakfast.
Then, Grace went home (sadly)
Then, we went bowling (again!)
Then, we went Bugis (I think)
Then, I went home.
End of story of class chalet :D

Anyway, I'm sure I'll mis 209. My class next year suxxxxx to max.

TO JGC, I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU :D

um...whats next...
BNCOC COURSE
Okay, I only went for the course
coz i'm at genting while the camp
is on. Awww...how fortunate haha.
Anw, the course is quite...tough?
Their style is quite diff haha.
They dont let you pump. They let
you

endure

in
pumping position. And the course IC so
kelian. The first day one cried TT.
And I also felt like crying coz
she lagged abit and we pumping position
until want die alr. Second day
course IC is Gregory. Hmmm...fortunately,
I think the sirs also be ren xin make
it too tough for him.
Sir Willie: Ei, Course IC, tll your trainers to be faster
Gregory: Err...the trainers, walk faster
Sir Willie: Whoa, you tell your trainers to walk faster, they your trainees ah?
Gregory: Uhh...Trainers, Sir..tell you all to walk faster.
LOL! Okay, that was kinda cute and I think the
sirs and ma'ams laughed. Good Job!

Next....
Genting!!!! <3
Yay. Genting with WX.
Wasn't that fun though, expected
to have a greaaatttt time outdoors,
but it rained, and outdoor closed :(
Spent the whole day in indoors, sian.
Ren Shi new friends :) 2 of them,
brother and sister :) The brother
took really good care of her lo.
Ji Xian Mu. Ei, sis, you see this?
:P Oh yeah, me and WX sit...sort of
a ghost train or sth like that. Guess what?
In side the 'ghost house' nothing at all.
Just, twist and turn twist and turn, skulls,
er...ghost faces painted on walls, WX
didn't even raise her head. Then when
she asked, hey, were we out? Yay,
We were out LOL. We were laughing when
we came out. Funnye. But totally waste
of time. :/ INdoors was just sian lo.
Oh, snow world was quite fun ;) -4 degree celsius.
Brrr....cold. Bumb my butt on the snow (or rather, frozen salt)
Ouch. Did some Christmas shopping with WX,
even got to play pool.

FAC day camp
Okay, shall make this short.
First day, S1 :) quite qing song la.
Loads of FA stuff and HOME NURSING
Ugh. I hate home nursing. Hope i'll get a
good role in the real competition.


Orchard with Jane
Oh hey. I managed to get out with
Jane. To Orchard! Went ION. Jane
bought some clothes, I just took
the clothes that I'm interested in
then tried out in the fitting room.
'yes miss?' 'er...no thanks' black face.
Embarrased, I walked out :/
Jane and I ran to Mt.Elizabeth.
Dental appointment :D I chose
the colour of her braces!!!
Had fun. :D

Orchard with WX
Went to Bookfest@Suntec. Um...
bought some books but still cant
find Add Math Textbook :/
Aft that went to have a meal
@ Orchard Californian Pizza :D
or sth like that. NIce pizza
but also very ex. $19.90
Walked around ION. Didn't buy anything
though, and went to have a walk
along Orchard Road. The Christmas
decorations were nice!!!!
took alot of pictures. Alot
of failed ones la haha. Durian Pancake,
Ice Cream, @ Takashimaya!
And I wrote my wish on the wishing
Tree! :D Went home real late.


OKay, going to sleep now. Bye.

I cant describe how i'm
feeling nowadays. Bad results
= loads of nagging. Of course, I
know that. Since I knew the
consequences yet I dug my own
grave, everything that happened
to me nowadays seemed to be shouting
at me: " I deserved it". Whatever I
heard, good or bad, I deserved it.
I accepted everything, but i find myself
feeling so damn lost, like i went on
a merry-go-round but it wont stop turning.
I wake up everyday thinking, I'm gonna
change i'm gonna change, but still,
i'm the same and it makes me feel so
damn disgusted with myself.

Bad results=no computer+grounded (accept for cca)
which means, no class chalet. And i feel
so miserable. Last occasion with class 209+
109, and i cant go. Again, I feel like
I deserved it so I didn't fight much.
To all classmates and friends, I'm sorry I cant
go to the class chalet, hope you all understand.
Its my own fault that I cant go :/
So anw, I'm still feeling so damn fucking pissed with
myself I dont feel like doing anything else.
Music is my antidote. Otherwise I gonna turn
to alcohol, (if have la, but my house dont have :x)


So anyway, sorry for the long ranting post.
I also need to save my dying blog. I dunno
when I'll be able to blog again but hopefully
the next time i blog I wont be ranting AGAIN.

Oh, and tag me so that I know you are here (:



oh oh oh. Thanks to all who gave me cards. Nv give me one also thank you
for giving me precious memories of my lower secondary life (:

Restrictions are making me mad.
Whatvever i dun wanna talk or
even think about it. Comparisons
also making me mad. Everything looks sooo
bad to me.
I'm just gonna act like i dont care.
Missing my friends already. I dont even
know whether i'm agood friend anyway.

So, tmr is D-day. Hopefully things turn out good.
Ugh. Bad feelings rising up whenever i think of
tmr. Things are bad B-A-D

Putting up a strong front doesn't work anymore. As much
as i hate to admit, I really dont know what to do; or what to say :/

I think I've wrote too much on my blog.
Anyone can come here and see my post.
Maybe i'm going to make my blog private.
but--my blog's popularity is not that high
after all :/ I'll just save the trouble.



D-DAY SUCKS
EVERYTHING SUCKS
and nothing helps.



Do you know how much your plans make me crazy? You are doing things that I cant. Thought that you're of help. Now i'm whispering to myself:"as if"

Exams are hard...
for me at least. Every subject
looks like aliens. I think
i gonna flunk all my subjects.
Aiyah. Dont care alr. Might as well
enjoy my 3-day 'hols' now.
My mum said she gonna ban alot of
things if i dont get good results T.T

Anw, I watched the movie 'Cloudy
with a chance of Meatball' Not bad.
Motivational movie yep. Got new
facial wash. Fr Wx's mum. Hopefully
it'll improve my condition T.T
MY HAIR IS GROWING <3
but i'm not going to tie plaits -.-
Mr Quek pls dont catch me during
uniform check :/

So, J,G and C going to Leaders' Camp.
Left me never got chance. Thinking poitively,
i have a holiday while they dont. Hahahahaha~~

Ring ding dong is hawt HAWT HAWT!!!!

Hope you guys (JGC) have a fun time with those terrifying height elements :p

oh yeah. ShiNee new mini-album
out! SM sure dont want the audience
to forget them. Its only 2++ months
after Juliette goodbye stage :/
But anw, alr looked forward to
this for a week <3 finally its out.
The mv which just appeared on Youtube
ytd: